Friday, July 16, 2010
just ranting
their comes a point in every ones life where they have to come and accept things for what they are. well i have a problem where i over analyze and over think everything and then i get so over emotional. and you could say it is just because i am a woman or just because i am trying to get my way, i have heard it all.. but i just get to this point sometimes where i just start to cry over all of the little things like i will think about something about the past and i will ball my eyes out, and if someone doesn't notice that i am upset i will cry because of that. and i swear the i am not on my period or PMS-ing lol or even pregnant. it just feels good to cry sometimes.. but i really wish that some people would notice that their is something wrong and ask me what is wrong. it makes me mad when the person who is supposed to know you the best in the world doesn't notice because aren't they the ones who should notice... and you ask them all the time when they look down if everything is ok but they don't ask when something is evidently wrong. sometimes i just don't feel like i am cared about by this person... they say the right things but sometimes they don't act like they care i need someone who will show me how they feel about me and who reassures me about my fears and concerns someone who will sit their and talk to me about my dreams and who will ask questions so that i know that they care about me just like i care about them. and i would like to come to the conclusion that things aren't going to work out in this area of my life but i cant help but hold on with every bit of my heart because i know that things will get better in time, they always do. but in the mean time i am so impatient i want this NOW! i hate waiting even if it is the only option...
Thursday, July 15, 2010
a lesson learned
in life you learn to love, and sometimes it is to the point of no oblivion. and well i think that i have surpassed that. ever since i can remember i have loved this boy to the point where it hurts. and that was minus all of the pain i was in because of everything else that was going on, and trust me their was so much pain. but i am not sitting here and being away from my man is so painful but so joyful because at last i can call him mine. after all of this time i can say that he in mine and i know that when he looks at me with his beautiful green eyes that he is mine for eternity. and all of the pain and suffering that i went through is all made up just by being able to see him laugh. what i dont think that he understands is that just by having experienced all of that pain by not being with him and seeing him with other girls and hearing him talk about other girls makes just seeing him smile enough to make up for all of it. to see him happy is what makes my world. i think that i have come to the point where i love him past all of the pain, so it doesn't hurt anymore it is way more then that. and i know that he loves me that much to. because he knows that i will never leave him or turn my back on him, and he would never make me. but i don't think that he gets that he doesn't have to buy me anything or take me out because i am just so grateful to have him with me and by my side. but he does anyway which makes him absolutely amazing.. i seriously couldn't have asked for anyone better, he surpasses perfect in every way shape and form and i hope that you all experience that l=kind of love that will overcome everything and you will wake up every morning to the face of beauty with joyfulness that you wont even be able to fathom just because they chose to wake up to you and make you the luckiest person in the entire world..... i hope you get from someone what he gave to me....
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
its been a while.
it has been so long since i have posted on here and my life has changed so much within the past year.
i have finished my junior year in high school
i have survived a deep deep depression
i have conquered addictions
i have faced many fears
i have gotten over things of the past and moved on
i have lost someone very dear to me
and i have started dating the person who i would be proud to call my best friend :)
what many people don't understand is that the time we have is precious and we have to value it because time goes by so quickly. time is a precious thing and we never know what what is going to happen that might take that time away. many people take for granted the time that we do have on this earth and are just lazy and don't care what is going on, i am not perfect and i am also guilty of such behavior. but i have just been learning recently that we have to take advantage of the time that we have here because we really never know what is going to happen, we could die and in a split second everything changes.
we have to dance like no one is watching
sing like their is no tomorrow
not fear the things that have no importance to us
take chances and risks
love like we have never been hurt
and live life to the fullest
it has been said and said again but if i have learned anything over the last year it is that we must most of all love like we have never been hurt, because we don't know when the people you love are going to leave. weather or not they walk out or they pass away. you cant doing anything in life without us, it is the strongest emotion in the our human bodies. everything that we do is out of love, even if you hate someone. hate is a emotion of passion and you must have loved them at one point to have hated them now. life would mean nothing without love, their is no point to life is we have no love. the simple reason that we are on this earth is to love. to love the people around us and to love this things around us. we all have that special someone weather they are a best friend a family member or a spouse (significant other) who we would be nothing without.
i have fallen in love with someone, and had them just walk out on me with no second thoughts and i know more then anyone that it hurts like a bitch but i also know that the time that the time that i spent with that person in a way made up for the pain because i got to fall in love and have them in my life for the time period. and now time has moved on and they came back and we are together for real this time and things are better then ever but if i didn't take that chance and accept them back into my life then wouldn't have have come out of depression and i wouldn't have been as happy now as i am because he makes me happier than humanly possible.
my point is, is that we have to take advantage of the time that we have with our loved ones because we don't know what is going to happen, and at the same time we have to live life to the fullest without any fears because it is our fears that gets in our way of taking risks and living a fulfilled life with the memories that we have.
time is valuable and precious and take advantage of the time that you do have and use it wisely because we only have one life to live so we must make the most of it....
i have finished my junior year in high school
i have survived a deep deep depression
i have conquered addictions
i have faced many fears
i have gotten over things of the past and moved on
i have lost someone very dear to me
and i have started dating the person who i would be proud to call my best friend :)
what many people don't understand is that the time we have is precious and we have to value it because time goes by so quickly. time is a precious thing and we never know what what is going to happen that might take that time away. many people take for granted the time that we do have on this earth and are just lazy and don't care what is going on, i am not perfect and i am also guilty of such behavior. but i have just been learning recently that we have to take advantage of the time that we have here because we really never know what is going to happen, we could die and in a split second everything changes.
we have to dance like no one is watching
sing like their is no tomorrow
not fear the things that have no importance to us
take chances and risks
love like we have never been hurt
and live life to the fullest
it has been said and said again but if i have learned anything over the last year it is that we must most of all love like we have never been hurt, because we don't know when the people you love are going to leave. weather or not they walk out or they pass away. you cant doing anything in life without us, it is the strongest emotion in the our human bodies. everything that we do is out of love, even if you hate someone. hate is a emotion of passion and you must have loved them at one point to have hated them now. life would mean nothing without love, their is no point to life is we have no love. the simple reason that we are on this earth is to love. to love the people around us and to love this things around us. we all have that special someone weather they are a best friend a family member or a spouse (significant other) who we would be nothing without.
i have fallen in love with someone, and had them just walk out on me with no second thoughts and i know more then anyone that it hurts like a bitch but i also know that the time that the time that i spent with that person in a way made up for the pain because i got to fall in love and have them in my life for the time period. and now time has moved on and they came back and we are together for real this time and things are better then ever but if i didn't take that chance and accept them back into my life then wouldn't have have come out of depression and i wouldn't have been as happy now as i am because he makes me happier than humanly possible.
my point is, is that we have to take advantage of the time that we have with our loved ones because we don't know what is going to happen, and at the same time we have to live life to the fullest without any fears because it is our fears that gets in our way of taking risks and living a fulfilled life with the memories that we have.
time is valuable and precious and take advantage of the time that you do have and use it wisely because we only have one life to live so we must make the most of it....
Monday, July 13, 2009
church
i haven't written one of these in a while and i apologize for that! i have been quite busy.
i went to the cape last week and on that trip we had a bible study, and a member of my church played the guitar and sang a song called "wrap me in your arms" and during that song the anointing of god was so strong. once i got back i got to thinking that it doesn't matter where we are we can always have the anointing of god, as long as he is there ( and he never leaves) we can feel his anointing at any moment in time if we wish to. if you have ever felt the presence of god than you never want it to leave you can never describe how it feels it is that amazing :) being in the presence of god is this better than anything else that you can feel in the natural it is something supernatural. it is like a physical high and it is just so amazing because it is healthy for your body! i cant even begin to describe how awesome it is.
but as i was thinking about that i started thinking about church, we can have church where ever we go if we are on vacation or in the desart even in a dumpster god is always there with us and he never leaves because he is the same yesrerday today and forever which is awesome becasue then his promises to us never change. as long as we have the word of god and god with us than we can do absolutley anything even have a church service anywhere you want :)
i went to the cape last week and on that trip we had a bible study, and a member of my church played the guitar and sang a song called "wrap me in your arms" and during that song the anointing of god was so strong. once i got back i got to thinking that it doesn't matter where we are we can always have the anointing of god, as long as he is there ( and he never leaves) we can feel his anointing at any moment in time if we wish to. if you have ever felt the presence of god than you never want it to leave you can never describe how it feels it is that amazing :) being in the presence of god is this better than anything else that you can feel in the natural it is something supernatural. it is like a physical high and it is just so amazing because it is healthy for your body! i cant even begin to describe how awesome it is.
but as i was thinking about that i started thinking about church, we can have church where ever we go if we are on vacation or in the desart even in a dumpster god is always there with us and he never leaves because he is the same yesrerday today and forever which is awesome becasue then his promises to us never change. as long as we have the word of god and god with us than we can do absolutley anything even have a church service anywhere you want :)
Friday, May 22, 2009
i got thinking alot today with talking to one of my friends who is going through a rough time with her and her boyfriend and then i got reminded of the poem " Footprints"
Footprints
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed He was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from His life. For each scene He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to Him and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of His life flashed before Him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of His life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of His life.
This really bothered Him and He questioned the LORD about it. LORD you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.
The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.
Carolyn Carty, 1963
what most people dont understand is that god never leaves us and he will never forsake us! he is always there no matter what, to leans on when times get rough and he is our shoulder to cry on when life is tough. when we ask god into our heart he is there forever and he will never leave
in the bible god calls us his children
See what love the Father has given us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him. Beloved, we are God's children now; it does not yet appear what we shall be, but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. And every one who thus hopes in him purifies himself as he is pure. (1 John 3:1-3)
"I (Jesus) am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."- John 14:6" to all who received Jesus, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God." - John 1:12
not only that god calls us his friends
John 15:15 No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you.
god promises in the bible never to leave us
hebrew 13:5 Let your character be free from the love of money, being content with what you have; for He Himself has said, "I will never desert you, nor will I ever forsake you,"
jow awesome is that that even after we sin god always takes us back he loves us that much that he will always be here for us! god never leaves us if we ever do feel far away from him it is because we are either pushing ourselves away from him or we are putting things before him. but we can even do the worst sins of all and god will always be welcoming us back with open arms. if we do ever have a problem god is calling out to us so that we can put it in him, so that he can take care of it! because no matter what plan you have for your life gods plan is always better than yours because it is gods will he only wants what is best for you; for his children! god wants you to put all over your sorrows and all of your pain in him so you can live a happy life, not all things can be done in the natural but ALL things can be done in the supernatural by god!
it says in the bible
Ephesians 3:20
Now to hin who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think according to the power that works in us.
god is always in us and he is always working in us! if we ever feel distant he is still there and he will never leave because he is that same god yesterday today and forever god will NEVER change and that is one of the many things that is so amazing about him!
god bless
-Krista
Footprints
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed He was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from His life. For each scene He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to Him and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of His life flashed before Him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of His life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of His life.
This really bothered Him and He questioned the LORD about it. LORD you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.
The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.
Carolyn Carty, 1963
what most people dont understand is that god never leaves us and he will never forsake us! he is always there no matter what, to leans on when times get rough and he is our shoulder to cry on when life is tough. when we ask god into our heart he is there forever and he will never leave
in the bible god calls us his children
See what love the Father has given us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him. Beloved, we are God's children now; it does not yet appear what we shall be, but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. And every one who thus hopes in him purifies himself as he is pure. (1 John 3:1-3)
"I (Jesus) am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."- John 14:6" to all who received Jesus, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God." - John 1:12
not only that god calls us his friends
John 15:15 No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you.
god promises in the bible never to leave us
hebrew 13:5 Let your character be free from the love of money, being content with what you have; for He Himself has said, "I will never desert you, nor will I ever forsake you,"
jow awesome is that that even after we sin god always takes us back he loves us that much that he will always be here for us! god never leaves us if we ever do feel far away from him it is because we are either pushing ourselves away from him or we are putting things before him. but we can even do the worst sins of all and god will always be welcoming us back with open arms. if we do ever have a problem god is calling out to us so that we can put it in him, so that he can take care of it! because no matter what plan you have for your life gods plan is always better than yours because it is gods will he only wants what is best for you; for his children! god wants you to put all over your sorrows and all of your pain in him so you can live a happy life, not all things can be done in the natural but ALL things can be done in the supernatural by god!
it says in the bible
Ephesians 3:20
Now to hin who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think according to the power that works in us.
god is always in us and he is always working in us! if we ever feel distant he is still there and he will never leave because he is that same god yesterday today and forever god will NEVER change and that is one of the many things that is so amazing about him!
god bless
-Krista
Friday, May 15, 2009
True Love
what we don't understand is that true love comes in many forms. you can have a best friend, a husband, your kids. but another thing that we don't understand is that the best kind of true love is between Parent and child, and by this i mean between us and God... he gave his son for us that is how much he loves us. to all of the parents can you even imagine giving up for child to save the world! well jesus wanted to and he did jesus saved the world! another thing that we don't understand is that jesus didn't have to do it he could of just sinned he had all of the same temptations that we have today in the world and he was only human but he never broke through!that is how amazing he is! and he sis all of that just so that we could go to heaven he made it so easy for us to go to heaven and that is what true love is all about! i can honestly say from experience that you don't know what true love is until you learn to love god! because the love hat he has for us is so massive is in incomprehensible and he loves us all the way he doesnt love anyone of us more than the other no matter what we do and no matter how mant time that we sin god will always forgive us it says in the bible
Jer 31:3 (NIV) The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness
Lam 3:22 (NIV) Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail
1 John 4:16 (NIV) And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.
1 John 3:1 (NIV) How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him
god love for us will never stop and it will never cease to grow! he has this loving-kindness that draws us in and he gives us a place in heaven where we can dwell and that is the best kind of love that we cn have is with god!
~Krista
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