a lesson learned

in life you learn to love, and sometimes it is to the point of no oblivion. and well i think that i have surpassed that. ever since i can remember i have loved this boy to the point where it hurts. and that was minus all of the pain i was in because of everything else that was going on, and trust me their was so much pain. but i am not sitting here and being away from my man is so painful but so joyful because at last i can call him mine. after all of this time i can say that he in mine and i know that when he looks at me with his beautiful green eyes that he is mine for eternity. and all of the pain and suffering that i went through is all made up just by being able to see him laugh. what i dont think that he understands is that just by having experienced all of that pain by not being with him and seeing him with other girls and hearing him talk about other girls makes just seeing him smile enough to make up for all of it. to see him happy is what makes my world. i think that i have come to the point where i love him past all of the pain, so it doesn't hurt anymore it is way more then that. and i know that he loves me that much to. because he knows that i will never leave him or turn my back on him, and he would never make me. but i don't think that he gets that he doesn't have to buy me anything or take me out because i am just so grateful to have him with me and by my side. but he does anyway which makes him absolutely amazing.. i seriously couldn't have asked for anyone better, he surpasses perfect in every way shape and form and i hope that you all experience that l=kind of love that will overcome everything and you will wake up every morning to the face of beauty with joyfulness that you wont even be able to fathom just because they chose to wake up to you and make you the luckiest person in the entire world..... i hope you get from someone what he gave to me....