its been a while.

it has been so long since i have posted on here and my life has changed so much within the past year.
i have finished my junior year in high school
i have survived a deep deep depression
i have conquered addictions
i have faced many fears
i have gotten over things of the past and moved on
i have lost someone very dear to me
and i have started dating the person who i would be proud to call my best friend :)

what many people don't understand is that the time we have is precious and we have to value it because time goes by so quickly. time is a precious thing and we never know what what is going to happen that might take that time away. many people take for granted the time that we do have on this earth and are just lazy and don't care what is going on, i am not perfect and i am also guilty of such behavior. but i have just been learning recently that we have to take advantage of the time that we have here because we really never know what is going to happen, we could die and in a split second everything changes.

we have to dance like no one is watching
sing like their is no tomorrow
not fear the things that have no importance to us
take chances and risks
love like we have never been hurt
and live life to the fullest

it has been said and said again but if i have learned anything over the last year it is that we must most of all love like we have never been hurt, because we don't know when the people you love are going to leave. weather or not they walk out or they pass away. you cant doing anything in life without us, it is the strongest emotion in the our human bodies. everything that we do is out of love, even if you hate someone. hate is a emotion of passion and you must have loved them at one point to have hated them now. life would mean nothing without love, their is no point to life is we have no love. the simple reason that we are on this earth is to love. to love the people around us and to love this things around us. we all have that special someone weather they are a best friend a family member or a spouse (significant other) who we would be nothing without.

i have fallen in love with someone, and had them just walk out on me with no second thoughts and i know more then anyone that it hurts like a bitch but i also know that the time that the time that i spent with that person in a way made up for the pain because i got to fall in love and have them in my life for the time period. and now time has moved on and they came back and we are together for real this time and things are better then ever but if i didn't take that chance and accept them back into my life then wouldn't have have come out of depression and i wouldn't have been as happy now as i am because he makes me happier than humanly possible.

my point is, is that we have to take advantage of the time that we have with our loved ones because we don't know what is going to happen, and at the same time we have to live life to the fullest without any fears because it is our fears that gets in our way of taking risks and living a fulfilled life with the memories that we have.

time is valuable and precious and take advantage of the time that you do have and use it wisely because we only have one life to live so we must make the most of it....